my awesome friday night..

i forgot where i got up to in my last blog.

i dont know if i even wrote anything about friday.

so yeah, once upon a time

there was a 19 year old female from wigan

who was getting ready in her bedroom to go out with her friends

drinking malibu from the bottle while applying liquid eyeliner

she decided this probably wasnt a good idea.

so after meeting people in the tudor for some drinks

then trekking over to the boulevard to watch some bands

and meet her girlies.

and have alot more drinkies.

they walked over to the lux, where drunken podium dancing

being generally shitfaced & making a tit out of herself occured

just as usual...

ahhhaa. why am i writing like that?

thats well gay

anyway yeah, i got proper fucking shitfaced.

like stupidly drunk, i could barely walk

ahhaaa. then antz wanted to go to fever.

so obviously, after the other week when he went without me

i went. why wouldnt i?

so it was just me and him, we stayed for 1

then went outside so he could have a smoke

he made himself sick. yum.

then he walked me home, not before making a stop at his place to get me a hoodey

and i didnt even ask. :)

then, on the way home he told me that he wanted us to be just friends again

because he'll never treat me right apparently. 

so between sobbing my heart out on him and trying to not let my eyeliner stream down my face

i was just shaking, i couldnt let go of him.

i cant let go of him.

im crazy about him. absolutely fucking crazy.

even lora said last night that i look smitten with him

and its true.. i pretty much love him..

so im gonna ring him in a bit, because he asked me too ring him.

im not being stalkerish.

i got in at 5am. its now 1pm

and ive had about 30 minutes sleep between crying and thinking and panicing.

i cant lose him.. i just cant. meh