mcd's & sunshine

it hurts
im stuck in the office at work eating my tea
which consists oh so amazingly greasy mcdonald's.
and considering my uniform is black and white
and ive ran out of white stuff
im wearing all black
in a basement pub.
i think im gonna cry at some point later on..

on the plus side i finished work 3 hours early last night
then me and antz went home and watched billy elliot :)
then he left me at like 12.30 today to go to his mums
but he's coming visiting me later thank god
hes the only thing keeping me sane lately
him & natalie.
christ.

plan for the week:
monday: possibly liverpool then a gig in bolton with antz
tuesday: go to leeds & dress up as a sailor & get shitfaced
wednesday: come home with a nice hangover
thursday: afd at work again
friday: you know the score.

busy little bee me :)

oh & ;)

we did the rudey on wednesday night

i had an asthma attack half way through!

rofl & i didnt have my inhaler.

im a twat

its funny now though :)

well..

good news confirmed :)

just gotta be like definatly confirmed on monday

its gonna be awesome if it goes through :)

thursday was awful.

14 hours at work stressing and all sorts.

i love it when youve been there 12 hours

and sit down for 10 minutes and other barstaff give you shit

fuck off. she'd been there like 3/4 hours. takes the fucking piss

but. had an awesomeee day yesterday :)

drank in the tudor for ages.

went home, got ready, went back to the tudor.

i took 1 picture all night & it was of me and my outfit ahhhaa.

antz showed up, already drunk

ahhaa. then we watched the adjusters & me and antz had a dead long awesome chat

he told me he loved me :)

i told him to tell me when he was sober lol.

i'll be waiting a while..

then we shuffled on to boulevard where we were horrifically mashed

staggered into lux & i spent most of the night looking after antz

he was a state

i was horrific, but he made me look sober

it took us like 20 minutes to walk home.. seriously.

i went to put my pj's on and he'd took his kecks on and fell asleep in my bed lol

so i just kinda left him :)

about half an hour later he put his arm round me and we had a little drunken chat

dunno if it made things better or worse.

woke about at like 2.30 today feeling rough, but not as rough as i should be

it'll hit me later when im in work.. meh!

but i seriously need something to eat before i die.

it was weird sleeping in my own bed on a friday..

but antz is staying here again tonight :) hurrah.

sexy sexy.

amazzzzzing news

&& i cant even say what!

gahhh!

my aunt's just rang & gave me an amazing offer

she's got a meeting tomorrow

then possibly the go ahead. fucking hopefully

then she's gonna ring me first thing

fingers crossed

i am so excited its unreal

:)

m'off to the pub

& not for shitty football either

celebratory beverages <3

ohemgeeeee im excited

&& leeds next tuesday

getta see muh laydeeee's

& dress up as sailors

sexy

note to self: buy sailor hat on friday!

wednesday morning

well. i stayed at antz's on monday night

woke up yesterday morning to go buy some jeans

(and because i had to be out by 9.30 because coops is gay)

and he just randomly came with me. :) which was nice.

when he was supposed to be at tng.

then we decided we wanted egg on toast

so we trekked back to mine to make eggs and toast :)

which was even nicer.

then i took my sister back into town for a mooch

& because the weather was lovely 

and he came with us.

then when we were walking home, he went home.

because i was going watching Sophie at her gymnastics lesson.

then i rang him at like 11pm because he turned his phone on lol.

& he told me to come round to his and stay over again. so i did :)

and we watched the rest of sin city.

woke up at 9.15, got up, got dressed and came home

now im gonna tidy my room then probably catch up on some sleep

considering im doing a 14 hours shift tomorrow. meh :( lol.

roll on friday <3

killing me softly

ive pure been listening to chessy music for aaaages lol

ahh well.

went to a bbq about 3pm

after being woken up at 12 by fish wanting me to go over

so me & joe went to asda for booze then went bbq'ing

which was crap.

1 satay stick & a burger

what kind of bbq is this?

christ.

then we went home basically. because it was shite.

so im just packing and getting ready

i re-dyed my fringe

checkkkk

hellzyeahhh. finally.

rofl. only took me 3 weeks :)

its sexy though

mhwahhaa :)

staying at antz's tonight

gotta be there in an hour

i am tiredddddd. im pure just gonna mong out

the time is 6.20am

and ive been sat in my back garden for 3 and a half hours

with anthony.

after all the shit on friday

he came in to see me tonight & we ended up going to lux

he walked me home and we sat at my front door for a bit

after deciding we both needed a wee, we went for one

then sat in my back garden for aaaaages chatting shit at each other

and talking and apologising.

it was pretty nice actually :)

really random though.

im gonna stay at his tonight/tomorrow

whatever you wanna call it. well at 9.30pm im going round his

because hes going to skem in the daytime to see some friends.

im gonna sleep & then tidy up.

thank fuck this weekends over.

& thank fuck its aaaaaaages away until another bank fucking holiday!

grr.

cockup.

well, i didnt dye my hair

or get my shoes re-heeled.

i just bought new ones. that were dead sexy

and i made it all night in them

everyone went to fever afterwards

i just went home to wait for everyone & mong out on the couch

about 6.45 everyone came home

except antz.

why?

because nat found him kissing another girl and wouldn't let him come back

i spent ages to him on the phone

cried myself to sleep

got a bollocking of billy for 'lying' about something i said to nat

it was a good night until i didn't go to fever

i feel partially responsible.

meh.

and i've gotta get ready and go to work. 

i feel so fucking awful :(

i just wanna curl up and die

SHE LIVES!

:) hurrah

shoes reheeled

then pub

the list is totally fucked now she's answered her phone ahhaa

fuck it.

PUB! :)

the friday list

Things to do:

pedicure

manicure

bath

shave

fake tan

dye fringe

dry & style hair

take stuff to Nat's

cook

have tea

drink lots

do makeup

get dressed

go out.

get mashed

come home & die

hopefully in that order.

&& fatty's still not answering her phone

ive been shopping & tesco's already

i hope shes home soon

i need to go get my shoes & get them reheeled.

bahh humbug!

"ring me in the morning"

she says

"she we can go on the sunbeds and start early"

how can i fucking ring you natalie

if your god damn phone is switched off!?!?!?!

do inform me. because id love to know!

idiot face.

blah blah friday

after my shit 14 hour shift

and locking up the pub the night before

& kissing awesomely hot boys

from yes;sensei (L) fittt much

blake. sexy fuck. mm

ahha

kinda broke it off with ant, but then we kinda got it back on

so its technically his birthday now

& ive gotta go shopping tomorrow

for his last present (streightners) rofl.

and food. because im cooking us a meal

for me, him, nat & billy :)

then were gonna go get mashed up.

for a change :) rofl.

good times.

im shattered. ive gotta be up at 10 

to have a bath & shave my legs before i go on the sunbeds

bad times. im so fucking pale its wrong!

moan moan moan

ive been reading through previous blogs

and it has come to my attention

that i am a prize fucking moaner.

rofl. all i seem to do is whinge

ahhha. ah well.

i told anthony that i was kidnapping him today

but he had to go to wales with him mum

so im kidnapping him later instead :)

me & my mum are making his birthday cake on friday

then im making tea for me, him, nat & billy :)

im dead excited.

i love birthdays

just got a few more pressies to buy & wrap on friday

cant do it today coz i got no pennies

& im at work 2pm-3am tomorrow :( gutted. i hate afd's!

ahh wellies. its a laugh.

so now, i have to find something productive to do

i was considering tidying my room

because its a shit hole.

but i might just go back to sleep for a bit.

i stayed at his last night :) it was nice.

oooh actually, i might see if i can get the bbc i.player up on my laptop

i wanna watch that programme that was on sunday night

about the adopted kids.

hmm.

for fucks sake.

he's at hers yeah

shes deleted me off his myspace yeah

so why is his mood thing

"nataliee :)" ?? WTF!!!!!???!?!?!?!??!?!?

THIS NEEDS FUCKING SORTING

BEFORE I KILL THE BOTH OF THEM!

tj hughes

is a mega mega let down

me & motherbear drove all the way to st.helens

for shit all. tj hughes is wank!

christ. we had soup in bb's muffins anyway :)

with a roll. it was yummeh.

and and, on our way home

we was listening to the radio 

& the 'real radio renegade' thing

the guy was in st.helens were we just were!

GUTTED!

we could have on 4k!

fuck a duck!

antz has gone seeing skankwhoretramp tonight

for his birthday present.

then i think im seeing him later

dunno though.

but i get him all to myself tomorrow :)

I LOSE!

meh. pureeee to good to be true

little skankwhorebintcunttwatbag!

anyways, i woke up to a nice kiss on the nose today :)

then he bugared off to TNG

then when i ring him and state

"mm, im all bored on my own in the pub, i was thinking off going home, but i wanted to know if you was doing anything"

i kind of expected a "well come round mine then"

but no.

i got a "yeahh, im bored, im having a quiet night in when ive tidied up"

rofl. i love how he cant take a hint.

or that he's ignoring it. ahhaa

anyway. not going to the zoo tomorrow

because joe is mean (if you ever read this joe, i'll never forgive you)

so im gonna have a bath now

and mong out

& tidy up tomorrow.

I WIN!

GET FUCKED YOU SLAPPER!

AHHHHHAAAAAA

shes possibly actually fucking given up

FUCK YESSSSSSSS!

malibu + fever = bad times

ended up on the malibu in work again

& in fever. bad times

me & antz had a nice little chat

he was far to bladdered to walk me home

ahha, now i know how he feels on a friday when he has to put up with me. rofl

he told me to send him "a nice long text"

so i did, 10 minutes of walking home, 7 pages long.

:) im such a sucker for romance.

anyways, its 5.34am.

& ive just walked home in the cold

it was an experience.

ive never walked home in the morning daylight sober.

its wrong, wrong, wrong i tell you.

i am back in work at 5 i think tomorrow.

pure monging out. i am fucked after this weekend.

next weekend is gonna be worse, fucking bank holiday. AGAIN!

grr.

rant over. goodnight/morning

weird night..

well. i had my ink

and its fit

hellz yeahhhh (L)

got mega wired last night.

talked to danny for a bit, danced downstairs

harassed miggi all night, got up to all sorts of mischief.

antz just fucked off home without saying goodbye. bad times..

crawled in about 5.45 and literally passed out on nat's couch until 1.30pm

then watched the hollyoaks omnibus.

now im at home feeling ever so sorry for myself

& im in work at 9.

bad times.

doubt.

when you go snooping on the internet

you really want reassurance.

no more ammunition.

meh. :(

friday tomorrow/when i wake up

so it should be fun

i know i'm gonna say something i regret.

bad times.

still. tattoo at 3.15 :)

this is what im having on my hands.

sexy much? rofl.

i'll post a proper picture when its been done

& my hands are all fit and swollen.

blah blah

well. after all the commotion

i went to antz's (after apologising a lot)

then tom text me, saying he's in Wigan

soooo. that was fun when antz said 

"yeahh, invite him over"..

that was fucking awkward. after an hour of sitting there in silence

i said i was going to the pub

i had one drink, and on my way home phoned antz

because he was being so rude to me when tom was there

so he told me because i was already nearly home

to get my staying over stuff and come back :)

so i did. and i slept over & we cuddled for ages

except at 6am this morning

when i was freezing and he'd stolen all my covers.

so i went and slept on the couch.

tattoo tomorrow :)

& drinking in Billinge before hand

good times.

i need a bath before work.

because i smell lovely =/

i hate cider.

why?

because after no food for over 24 hours

and 6 or 7 pints.

i get wasted, its all fine until antz shows up randomly

when ive been tryna ring him for hours

and is obviously pissed at me for being so drunk

says he's gonna go home, so then i get upset

meh meh meh. etc. you know the score.

and i was with tom

who a) is his friend and is b) mega fit. ;)

ahhha. 

i came home (well, i staggered)

a 10 minute walk took me half an hour, i got lost.

got in, cried on my mum in the kitchen

went to bed, and after the room started to spin

i threw up.

and woke up about 20 minutes ago.

at 3.30pm!

what is going on in the world!

ahhhaaa.

dare.

i got THE best dare last night

there's 2 older guys that come in the pub.

lovely as fuck they are. :)

so, when me & nat told them we could drink them under the table.

they've decided that in august

they're taking us out from 9.30am until late night

and whoever drinks the other 2 under the table wins.

if they win, we buy them a dew drinks.

one of the guys are THAT confident

that if we win, he's paying for us to go abroad :D

fuck the world.

an average tuesday.

ahhha.

this weekend has been totally mad!

spent saturday night feeling sorry for myself

got home to that horrible stuff

(see blog below)

then worked on sunday.

felt soooo ill.

antz came in and saw me to explain stuff

basssiclly, he didnt plan to see her.

meh, whatever, its all done with now :)

then we went to nat's house and drank a crate of cider

rather, he drank a crate of cider.

then we sat up alllll night, until like 9am talking and stuff

he's gonna introduce to me to his mum. i feel dead nervous ahhaa.

then we recovered allll day yesterday & then i stayed at his

we were actually asleep by midnight. ohemgeee!

ahhha. :)

i dont get.

exactly whats going on.

me & antz got pure mashed on friday night

and talked about stuff.

but i dont know what to believe

he's going behind my back seeing her still.

i dunno what to say, i cant ask him.

i wish, my some divine miracle, that she'd fuck off

&& leave us alone.

someone sort this out for me.

it hurts too much...

:(

mr orange

his voice pure irritates me

im watching it again

because i slept through most of it earlier

ahhaa.

went round antz's and watched stardust :)

coz were cool like that.

14 hours shift tomorrow

&& im locking up the pub

:) thats some trust right there.

i love it.

i gotts sort my face out then go to sleep

up early, gotta have a bath!

boots or beer

boots obviously.

not the type you wear on your feet.

the plan was to go to the pub tonight.

but i spent like £14 in boots. ahhha

on all sorts of crap.

be reeeet.

ant's not here yet, what a surprise.

fucking still in bed at 2.30

lazy fucker.

so ive resorted to lying in bed in my pj's

painting my nails 

& watching reservoir dogs.

good times.

ahhhaa :)

sat on the phone for over 2 hours

asking each other questions about random stuff.

he's coming over tomorrow after he's been food shopping.

then were going out with nat & miggi :)

&& our plan for friday is to persuade nat to give us her keys

so we can watch movies in her house & get drunk

she cant say no, i'll guilt trip her ;)

got plenty tidying up to do tomorrow. 

mehh. bad times. :(

then anthony comes over. good times :)

^_^

i feel like

crying. again

shes fucking everything up

and im going to punch her hard in the face!

i am in possibly the worst mood ever.

i fucking hate her. i absolutley fucking hate her

i will kill her one day if she EVER tries to cross me.

i need

to get out of this damn house

my room stinks of nail varnish remover

and nail varnish.

oh the irony.

ahhhhaaa. im getting high sat here

i might get dressed

ive harassed facebook to take me out ahhaaa :)

sexy sexyy

got cuddles all night :)

ended up watching lee evans

went for food, then snuggled in bed.

then when midnight came, he offered me to stay over :)

and he promised that i can have all his kisses ^_^

ahha. he's so cuteeee. i wanna eat him on a buttie.

then, i stole his gloomy bear hat.

*insert generic myspace picture here*

ftw. 

and now, im going to bed.

because i got none.

i hate hate hate sharing a single bed.

especially with a sprawler. hehe

^_^

i wish i wish

he'd turn his bastard phone on!

it's what its for.

so people can ring you. 

idiot pidiot.

youre no good for me

(8) i don't need nobodyyyy

bouncing about to that last night.

princes reunion was awesomeee.

after cocktails in rev's of course. ahhaa

was supposed to be working, but got off at like 11 because we were dead

so i went home, got changed & went out

slept on nat's couch.. for a change :) rofl.

woke up to her screaming this morning because there was a spider in the bath

nice! (Y)

but but but i misses anthonybean :(

not seen him since saturday morning when he woke me up with kisses then went to manchester

ive not actually even spoken to him.

and his phones turned off. i bet he's with her/it.

i shall have him.

one day (L)

practice makes perfect.

ahhha. just woken up.

that sleep did wonders for me!

after i posted that blog. i had a mooch about on twitter

and nat's latest thingy whatsit said 

"i wanna break her in to tiny pices :) wanna help? ^-^xxxx"

rofl, id pay good fucking dollar too see her try.

she cant even bastarding well spell!

well, my blisters are sore and i need to get ready for work.

tonights gonna be stupid

princes reunion anyone?

im off after work

doc martens

and 9 hour shifts dont mix nicely

my feet and bruised, blistered and damn sore

no exaggeration. seriously.

im a pain!

off to sleep. to be back in at 6 tomorrow.

dont we all just LOVE bank holiday sunday

*insert sarcasm where appropriate*

the morning after..

i look a right state. ahhaa

had some sleep at least, for once.

after drinking far too much vodka & gin

and a few narcotics, i was mashed.

dancing about like an utter prick. again..

ahhaaa

i dyed my hair turquoise :)

fittt. check it.

got described as a smartie :) rofl.

anthonybean stayed at nats

we had a proper chat about stuff, it was dead good

and ive been described by his ex as

"obsessed with antz, and has nothing better to do with her time than fuck with other peoples boyfriends"

it made me lol. alot.

other than the bunch of twats that ransacked the house it was all good.

and im in work in an hour and i need a bath. i stink

but the dress i had on last night was sexy sexy sexy ;)