fuck this

so yeah. i only did 2 things on my list.

but to be fair. finding out your best mate has been twated by her boyfriend

who's been locked up for assault and domestic violence

it kinda gives me a reason not to go to work and not to do my list.

i worry so much about her its unreal.

so while nat was in work i went for tea at bizzles

and talked to her dad about jimmi hendrix and LSD :)

then i went to see nat quite early on and i just kept her and the new girl company.

she's a rate laugh.

so, its now midnight

and im gonna pack my bag for tomorrow then watch the notebook with ice cream

i cant wait to get away from this place. even if its just for 1 day.

i miss mat and im sick of being here

oh, and i came home tonight being accused of stealing from amanda now.

because she left her bag in my room the other night while i was in work

i was in fucking work. and i didnt even know she'd left it in my room until i came home

to a note on my door asking to leave it outside her door.

anyone could have got to that bag,

but ohhhhh no, only fucking beki could have stole it!

i cannot fucking wait to get out of this place. im so fucked off.

i need a proper cuddle. off anyone.

i need a good cry :( just someone who gives a shit.

to just let me cry and release everything.

im sick of bottling up all my shit when theres no need for it.

i should have that someone whos there for me.

and i dont.